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Thursday, August 25, 2022

Emotions

Yesterday was a very emotional day for me, and not much else makes an emotional day worse than a phone call from my mother. None of it is something I want to discuss, but I also don’t feel like talking about anything else. Don’t worry, it wasn’t anything really bad, but I was feeling pretty drained last night. I got home, ate dinner, talked to a friend on the phone, my mother called, and then, took a Xanax for my anxiety before laying on the couch to watch Star Trek, which is always good for my mental health. I just needed to get recentered and relax.
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11 comments:

  1. UnknownAugust 25, 2022 at 10:16 AM

    Of course, your family is going to "push your buttons", they're the ones that installed them.
    Breathe. Absolutely be gentle with yourself.

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  2. VRCooperAugust 25, 2022 at 11:36 AM

    Xanax. You do you BUT that says it all.

    May I suggest--

    https://www.instagram.com/josh_ffw/?hl=en

    There may be some nuggets for life.

    Best

    XO

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  3. naturgesetzAugust 25, 2022 at 2:11 PM

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  4. naturgesetzAugust 25, 2022 at 2:13 PM

    It's okay to tell your mother that you don't want to talk about a topic she brings up. If she persists, it's okay to say, "Not now. Bye-bye," and hang up on her before you get stressed.

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  5. uvdpAugust 25, 2022 at 4:15 PM

    And if it was you who called your mother?

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  6. JoeAugust 25, 2022 at 6:00 PM

    Uvdp, if it was me who called my mother, it would be the same thing. She always criticizes me and tells me how awful of a person I am. I do my best to be a good person, but because I am gay, I am going to Hell in her mind, so I am never able to do anything that she thinks is good. There will always be jabs at me for something. It is NEVER a pleasant conversation, so I rarely call her. I can’t handle being made to feel like shit every time I speak to my mother.

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  7. JoeAugust 25, 2022 at 6:11 PM

    VRCooper, thanks for the link. I needed to hear that.

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  8. AnonymousAugust 25, 2022 at 9:01 PM

    Not much I can do... I can't even talk to you, let alone accompany you. I feel helpless reading you and my hands are tied.
    The only thing I can do is to send you all my affection, offer you my friendship and from time to time get a smile on your face.
    From afar I send you all this and a big hug.

    Ángel

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  9. JoeAugust 25, 2022 at 9:14 PM

    Thank you, Angel. Your friendship means a lot to me.

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  10. AnonymousAugust 28, 2022 at 12:24 PM

    The next time she calls just tell her since she feels you are going to hell because you were born gay that you look forward to seeing her there with you for being a rude Christian woman. or Better Yet just Quote Aunt Em and tell her for 23 years you have being dying to tell her what you think but being a Good Christian Boy you can't say it and hang up on her.

    Love you

    Jon From UGA

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  11. AnonymousAugust 28, 2022 at 11:04 PM

    And your friendship Professor means much more than you suspect. In these moments that I am going through, you are my only point of support.

    Ángel

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